Today, 4 weeks ago you were born. Already you are growing and changing before our very eyes. The sleepless nights and around the clock happenings will be over before we know it. But as I sit up with you at 3am some nights, tired, so badly wanting to go to sleep I remember...this is the way it should be. You here with us, healthy, happy, big.
For 9 months, I worried. I knew it would be a tough road for us before we met you. There was a lot of worry, its was expected Thankfully, so utterly thankfully you were born on August 13th a happy healthy FULL TERM baby weighing 7lbs 8oz. A mere triple the size of your brothers! A tidal wave of relief washed over me, I am sure your dad felt that way too. I heard you cry, loud, clear, healthy cries, and I listened and was relieved. I had waited to hear that sound. And once I held you I knew it was ok, you were here, you were so absolutely worth the wait, and the worry. You, my dear, my beautiful daughter were in our arms and we were in love. You gave us that moment that we didn't get with your brothers, you gave us that time moment, to enjoy and be happy. It was good.
And as you sit here with me, 4 weeks older than that day, I am filled with love for you and your brothers, both your brother here, who is getting to know you and love you and your brother in heaven. And just like we have so many dreams and hopes for your brother, we have them for you, our little girl. I hope when you are older, that I am to you the way my mother is to me, a best friend. I hope for you all the things parents hope for, health, success, love, but most of all happiness. Thank you for being our beautiful girl.
I love you Ella Kay.